LAUJIAWEN.
Posted at 8:05 PM by LAUJIAWEN 
Sunday, January 2, 2011
i don't want people saying my dreams are unrealistic!
:(
is it too late to work hard now?
IM SO SCARED!!!
:( :( :(
IT'S THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I WANT SOMETHING SO BAD.
SO MUCH MORE THAN ANYTHING.
so it feels like that.
HOW!
THE MORE I THINK, THE MORE AFRAID I AM.
i was brought up to be realistic and practical.
BUT, OBVIOUSLY I STILL NEED SOMEONE TO TELL ME I CAN DO IT.
NOT ALL GANGING UP TO TELL ME TO SET REALISTIC GOALS!!
what is realistic?!
i don't even know anymore!
you tell me it means try lowering my standards.
all i needed was, "i believe you can do it."
And not, "It's near impossible, try aiming for a lower goal"
i didn't need to hear that :(
i want my dreams to come true.
And not remain as just dreams when i look back.
:(
and now my mind keeps saying stuff i don't wanna hear.
"look at your grades, yeah sure, you can make it -.-"
"it's too late!"
"what, you think you can?"
and my heart,
"of course you can. Why not?"